It’s been six long months since I’ve written a post. I mean “long” in the sense that “holy cow. Are you even kidding me with this?” Here’s what I have to look back on: Nothing. Absolutely nothing. Looking back is counterproductive. I’m not going to sugarcoat it. Heck- of course I will! Then I’ll dip it in milk chocolate and add a bit more sugar coating… Cancer sucks. It bites the big one. It looms in the air… just waiting, like monsters under the bed and in the closet after the lights are turned off. While most of us get used to the dark, that niggling fear of “what if…” never really goes away.
So I’ve decided to write a whole new book called “SUMMER 2018: Looking Ahead”. It has everything you want in a great summer romance: a suspenseful plot packed with fear, excitement and rrrrrrrrromance (imagine this as a trilled “r” ).
Chapter 1: SURGERY. No, really this time. Last. One.
After many irregular MRIs (didn’t I tell you there was going to be suspense?!?), I am finally eligible for one last surgery. Lefty simply isn’t being cooperative and has decided to take up residence close to my armpit.
Chapter 2: TATTOO. Every surgery is commemorated with a tattoo, this one will be spectacular.
This is going to be my last tattoo- I have no more space on my right arm. Nathan, who is quite the artist- will be designing it. He has a rough draft and so far it is looking ah-mah-zing.
Chapter 3: MOVING. Anyone have an empty refrigerator box to spare?
Our lease is up August 15th and the landlord is selling the house. Have I found a new place to move with a 7-year old, two dogs and a turtle? Nope. Do I have income to support this move? Not even a little. Have we started the move out process of packing? HA! Am I worried? Meh.
Chapter 4: NATHAN. More “pearls of wisdom” (see: It’s Nathan’s World- 2017)
This kid is hilarious. And amazing. And smart. So incredibly smart. Without ruining any surprises, here is one of many beautiful pearls: “I have the greenest grass.”
Chapter 5: LOVE. Romance is in the air.
“Every relationship has an expiration date.” I loved Andy, who you can read all about in prior blog posts, but Andy only loved our family when it was easy. When the going to tough, Andy got going. It was difficult, but in truth, it was (and is) for the best. He is his best person without us. And for us, well… let’s just say we have started this new Chapter of romance and love with someone who loves us in the good times and less good times, in health and sickness, a sweet and calming soul. Just what the doctor ordered.
Chapter 6: THE FUTURE. Don’t stress it.
Don’t wait until you have enough money or time to do what makes you happy. Don’t regret the past; it’s already happened. Don’t worry about the future; it has yet to come. Bask in the happiness of today and be grateful you are here to enjoy it.